This made for a rather shaky start, but things are going well and the new supervisors are great people, who are making positive changes in the program. Still, the prospect of finally exercising what I have so far only studied in theory has been making me really nervous, so I decided to do a reading. My question was "what can I expect from the internship in these initial weeks?"
The top card of the spread is the 5♦, which is usually remembered by its most negative connotation of being a warning in finances and transactions. But it has other meanings and, being in a dignified position here, in the place of its own suit, it can refer to changes in one's financial plans and even in one's identity (Diamonds is the suit of ego and identity after all).
I feel like this card is telling me things will not go exactly as I am expecting, but also that this new experience will change how I see myself or present myself to the world. My self-confidence will be tested, but it's neither a positive nor a negative thing per se – it all depends on how I choose to respond to the challenge. Combined with the 10♦ (Tendra) right below it, I also get the impression that this will be a very demanding undertaking at first, requiring a lot of my energy.
The A♣ is all about thoughts and perceptions, and in the Heart position this card tells me that, indeed, my powers of perception will be in the "heart" of the matter here. When I posted this spread in the Discord Server, Ana Cortez gave me yet another possible interpretation to this card – a wish for a heartfelt fulfilling relationship with this internship! This spread surely lacks Heart cards, so the A♣ occupying this position could represent my desire to really create emotional ties to this place and the people in it, which apparently will not happen so naturally at first (but the potential and the desire to is definitely there).
Lastly, we have the Q♠, Morgana, in her own suit position. At first, I thought Morgana was telling me I would have to build some strong roots in order to not be swayed by the things I see there (we deal with many difficult cases there). Ana,complemented my interpretation by noting how the Earth Queen is upside down... she's trying to get her feet back to the ground, but that is not happening, which is a rather uncomfortable way for her to be. So there's this impression of rootlessness, of taking a while to find one's footing. The lack of Hearts once again plays its part, since Morgana is lacking her complementary energy and needs to work with the rather elusive A♣.
I think that this new internship will be challenging at first, not in a negative way, but in the sense that I'll take a while to adapt and to become comfortable there. Also, it will demand a lot of me in terms of physical/energetic resources (Q♠ and 10♦). The Geomancy is Amissio + Fortuna Minor = Conjunctio. Again there is impression of tiredness and deflation at first, with a lot of hard work. But, eventually, a better connection to the place and situation will be built.
Both the A♣ and the Q♠ are cards of 'secrecy', which perhaps relates to the fact I'll be a position to know people's secrets. But I can't shake the feeling that these cards are also warning me to be careful on how I communicate there... not that I need to have a hidden agenda, but that I need to know when to speak and when to keep quiet. I tend to be too talkative and that often causes the wrong impression on people, so it's a good advice.
I pulled two witch's runes to complement the reading, and I got Waves + Rings. At first, it points to an unstable relationship, idealised even, but the Waves can also represent profound ties. Once more, I see the oracles saying that my connection with this new place and with my colleagues there may start a bit on the shaky side, but it has a great potential to grow into something deep and true.
