Entering the Creative Void! ~ a reading analysis

I'd like to comment on one of Ana's recent post in her blog: Hathor Message and Numerology – Entering the Creative Void! If you have not read it yet, I definitely recommend it! It's an amazing analysis of the number 5 and how it works in your life.

This is exactly what I am living right now. Here is how my latest reading went:

Head (♦/Fire): 5♣
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Throat (♣/Air): A♦
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Torso (♥/Water): 3♣
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Feet (♠/Earth): 10♠

The "Head" was the 5♣ (The Wind Cape), while the "Foot" was the 10♠ (Terrene), telling me to slip a bit into a state of acceptance, instead of fighting this 'void' crazily (as it is my tendency). Stay grounded, but don't harden yourself too much (like the Q♠, Morgana, would).

I've been trying to do that, but the discomfort is way too great.

I always thought that the 5♣ only meant 'confusion' or 'a head full of ideas'. Now I am living the 5♣ and it is at least 10 times more disturbing than I ever expected it to be. I've been sleeping badly, eating badly, I can't concentrate at work, my natural body rhythms feel thrown off... The mind overreacts because it knows that the crossroad is coming.

Or maybe it's already here?

You can't go back to where you were... you can try to deny the 'hurricane', but that means staying forever in the number 4. It's not a bad place to be, but if you are meant to go forward, it is quite stale.

Curiously enough, I got the A♦ (Ignita) in the "Throat" position. I'm not quite sure what it means, but this Ace has a lot to do with transformation. If there's one suit that likes to stir a bit of chaos is Diamonds, and its powerful Ace can be the catalyst for a metamorphosis or a tragedy. And isn't the the creative potential behind the confusion of the 5♣? The warm air feeding the hurricane?

In the "Heart" position, another Club card. 3♣ (The Wish). The power of the desire is strong right now, but for me this is not this card's main message. In this position, it is telling me to guard my emotions and thoughts a bit. Not share. When in chaotic situations, our tendency is to ask for other people's advice, or confess to them in order to relieve the stress a bit. Vent. But the 3♣ tells me that now is not a good time for that - there's a reason why I must feel this all alone, and others cannot understand it enough to give an opinion.

And then Lady Terrene, 10♠... in the "Foot" position, the only thing keeping the tornado from blowing Dorothy's house away. As I said above, she suggests that a certain acceptance is needed now... a peace of action, so to speak. Instead of actively seeking relief, it's time to go inwards and find ways to nurture the self (and the others who may need you) during these complicated times. It's the moment to seek stillness of the body... perhaps to immerse myself a bit in the routine, in the repetition, in order for the mind and heart to find their way again.

It reminds me of Jonathon Earl Bowser's painting Blue and Red. That which moves swirling chaotically around That which is still... Terrene in the centre of the 5♣.

This reading was done BEFORE I read Ana's post, and it spoke to me so clearly that it surprised me. I thought it would be impossible for me to do a decent reading these days, but sometimes we surprise ourselves. And reading Ana's post triggered another reflection on the message the cards were giving me. The message became more complete.