Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Nothing in the head... everything in the mind.

First of all, I'd like to thank all my friends who wished me good luck with the MRI.  For those who don't know it, I have been having bouts of hemicranial paresthesia, mostly involving episodes of numbness in my face. Now, I do suffer from migrained and trigeminal nerve sensitivity but this is very different from anything I ever had before!

But thank goodness, the results were good! Nothing in the brain and skull area! That's such a relief. We may have to investigate the spine area... I still have to talk to my doctor, see if he wants to try other things or wait to see if the symptom will go away on its own.

The more I think about it, the more I think my Pilates teacher (who is also a physiotherapist) is right – my constant neck/back tension could be the source of the problem. I am a very stressed person, and the fact I have not been sleeping well makes it even worse. I have trigger points in my neck and upper back area (she told me that), and these can cause many symptom, from pain to numbness, in different areas of the body.

If that's the problem, then it's something I can deal with. Through Pilates and Yoga exercises, I can try to cure the physical symptoms. But as we know stress is also psychological, and this is also part of the problem. What could be making me THAT stressed?

Perhaps my mind is the biggest trigger point of all. It's the true source of my blockages.

In a moment of great worry, I did a 4-card reading with my Playing Card Oracles about what could be causing the facial numbness. The in the Head position was the 2 of Spades - a card of disagreements, strife, conflicts and... inner turmoil. We discussed the reading at the Temple of Wisdom, but it was hard to pinpoint the cause of the problem due to our general lack of expertise in the medical field (only one member is a healthcare professional, and he did bring some good and objective ideas) .

However, the more I look at this card the more it says to me that the roots of the problem are not just organic, but psychological. The two faces in the card, yelling at each other, could easily be two side of me unable to come to an agreement. But why can't I hear what they are discussing about? And more importantly – who is the judge of this conflict?

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