First C.L focused on other problems, in order to not focus so much on the emotions that this separation arose. But now mourning is beginning to catch up with her, and she has asked the cards when she'll begin to feel better again. "I am 50 years old... I feel that nothing more will happen in my life anymore. I don't feel sad, but I feel disappointed with life."
I did the Cat Spread for her, in order to be able to give a more or less precise 'timing'. Before the "cat card" there were 7 piles of 4 cards, so the date I got was between mid-November and the beginning of December. I always allow about two weeks of leeway because I believe the manifestation of the cards is not a single event, but a continuous development that needs to be observed over a period of time.
Below are the two readings I did for C.L.
The Present Spread:
I think C.L has been using a rationality to 'emerge' from these complicated waters that surround her. She told me she has been dreaming a lot of water lately – perhaps her inner water, unable to manifest in her day life, are seeking release through her dreams.
The J♣ can also represent that younger man she was dating, showing that he's still in her heart.
The two Deuces speak to me of a certain duality within her. There's a desire to overcome this pain and 'stomp' on men all things related to them, which is represented by the 2♦. But there's also a subtle hope for a reconnection, for a companion (2♣). She no longer wishes nourish what she considers a useless expectation (that of finding love at this point of life), but at the same time, there's a part of her that yearns for that.
The 5♣ represents her feeling of being cheated by life somehow, of having had the 'rug pulled out from under her feet', so to speak.
The fact that we have three black cards and one red makes it clear that she's sad. Not desperate – I believe this would be better represented by Spades cards – but gloomy, even thought she appears tough and unaffected on the outside.
This is especially true because when I did the reading, the blade of the sword was pointing to the 10♦, dearest Tendra. For me this lady appears when someone is clinging to something they cannot have. So I believe that in the time given by the reading, C.L will finally be able to truly let go of the young man, release the memories, the regrets, the unfulfilled love... all the ties that bind.
There's also the 4♣, suggesting that the healing will be a slow process, and that she'll probably think twice before letting love in her life again. The 3♥ stands for love triangles and unstable emotions, but it can also represent emotional drama. I do not know what it is the message of this card, to be honest. I think it is connected to Tendra's message, of clinging to what you cannot have - in this case, clinging to someone who already has a partner and does not make any move to leave them. These are the things that C.L will slowly release from her life.
Furthermore, the 3♥ in the deck by C.J Freeman has a heart with a keyhole in the middle, suggesting that a special key is needed to open this heart. I believe that the experience may leave a bitter aftertaste for C.L and it'll be a while until she opens up again... She has to be careful to not become a victim of a self-fulfilling prophecy.
If anyone has extra insights regarding these readings, I appreciate them! :)
